I swirl about the world of Headache
Painful, dirty, dark blues and greys
Morsels of normalcy cannot widen narrow misery
Mind over matter does not work for stubborn biology
Time was condensed but now slowly the hole opens
Tick-Tocking into less apex pain
Yet other ticks and twitches remain
Hands, neck, back and arms
Random nerves -- the nerve they have!
I have no choice but to obey the audacity of harm

It wasn't a mosquito.

I just killed a bug full of my blood. I try not to kill any insects unless they harm me. This was some tiny little thing that has been flying around me on and off here at work today. I had enough once I felt itchiness on my left hand. Fuck guilt. I smashed it with a notebook. The fucker was fast - but I am faster. I hope it enjoyed it's last meal via my body. Now I'm itchy and have a little red dot for proof of death on a file folder. I wonder what kind of bug it was and I wonder if the blood stain will go from red to brown.

I'm leaving work early to go to the doctor. I can't wait this out any longer and I have so many things to do this weekend. The Fibromyalgia is acting up too... but I'm used to that.