Ah, the wonders of being young. I was always aware of death, including my own; but somehow I felt exempt. Sometimes I still do. My instinct and my mind are in a constant battle with each other. There is ultimately no winner, of course. The idea is to maintain some kind of solidity for my fragile mask of sanity whilst trudging about the weathered waking and sleeping worlds.
I like masks. I loathe masks.
3.02.2009
Random.
I love how everyone is so scared and annoyed by the snow. The only thing that annoys me is how annoyed everyone else gets. I think snow is great. Especially the kind that fucks up the day and melts a few hours later like as if it never happened. Today I get to stay home because the boss said so. He told me that I'm in no condition to go out in this weather and he didn't even know if he and his partner would be at work today. Also, today won't count as a sick day or anything of the like. Which is good, considering I missed the ENTIRE work week last week.
From strep to extremely bad tonsillitis to really bad cramping and PMS. Blood and more pain to come. I'm such a lucky girl. Yes, yes. It could always be worse. By the way - this is the first time since July 2008 that my period has finally regulated. I can only hope it stays this way.
Also, I love Cefuroxime Axetil.
Love is a tricky thing. What's trickier is trying to accept things about someone else that absolutely tear you apart inside. It doesn't matter if I'm damaged or not. I am who I am and I'm trying, I guess.
J is going snowboarding with his friend on Sunday. I am so jealous (for many reasons - some of which I will not share here). I want to go because I only got to go once this season and really want to learn more but I also don't want to go because J should have a day out with his friend and not have to worry about me being on the bunny slopes still learning. I hope next year will be different.
I have not gotten to go to any Islanders games this season, plus the Isles are doing so poorly. However, I'm loyal and enjoy watching anyway. J on a whim got a bundle package for three games last night. It includes: Two seats for three games of our choice (they give a list though to choose from). A $25 or $50 Visa Gift Card (he's taking the $25 one and I don't blame him). Vouchers for two hot dogs and sodas for each game and you end up saving almost 50% on prices in total. We are going to the Islanders Rangers game on Thursday (big rival crazy game it will be for those of you who do not know). The Isles Devils game on Saturday (another rival - dirty Jersey and J is a Devils fan so that should be fun!) and an Isles Flyers game on 4/11 (we chose a much later in the season game to give us something to look forward to doing hahaha). The seats are Mezzanine level though so that could mean we end up in really good seats or really shitty ones. Always a catch. I wonder if I could get the vendors to give me something other than a hot dog and soda though. Haha. I am very grateful but I'm also picky. Is that awful of me?
When I was sicker, I was telling myself that I'd rather be at work but I think what I was really telling myself is that I wish I was well enough to theoretically be ABLE to go to work, because now that I know I'm returning to work tomorrow, I'm not so happy about it and I really would rather just keep organizing my music on my computer (25,553 songs as of right now - I had to delete a lot), watch stupid shows on TLC and randomly lay down. That was some run on sentence, eh?
I wish I could be something great.
From strep to extremely bad tonsillitis to really bad cramping and PMS. Blood and more pain to come. I'm such a lucky girl. Yes, yes. It could always be worse. By the way - this is the first time since July 2008 that my period has finally regulated. I can only hope it stays this way.
Also, I love Cefuroxime Axetil.
Love is a tricky thing. What's trickier is trying to accept things about someone else that absolutely tear you apart inside. It doesn't matter if I'm damaged or not. I am who I am and I'm trying, I guess.
J is going snowboarding with his friend on Sunday. I am so jealous (for many reasons - some of which I will not share here). I want to go because I only got to go once this season and really want to learn more but I also don't want to go because J should have a day out with his friend and not have to worry about me being on the bunny slopes still learning. I hope next year will be different.
I have not gotten to go to any Islanders games this season, plus the Isles are doing so poorly. However, I'm loyal and enjoy watching anyway. J on a whim got a bundle package for three games last night. It includes: Two seats for three games of our choice (they give a list though to choose from). A $25 or $50 Visa Gift Card (he's taking the $25 one and I don't blame him). Vouchers for two hot dogs and sodas for each game and you end up saving almost 50% on prices in total. We are going to the Islanders Rangers game on Thursday (big rival crazy game it will be for those of you who do not know). The Isles Devils game on Saturday (another rival - dirty Jersey and J is a Devils fan so that should be fun!) and an Isles Flyers game on 4/11 (we chose a much later in the season game to give us something to look forward to doing hahaha). The seats are Mezzanine level though so that could mean we end up in really good seats or really shitty ones. Always a catch. I wonder if I could get the vendors to give me something other than a hot dog and soda though. Haha. I am very grateful but I'm also picky. Is that awful of me?
When I was sicker, I was telling myself that I'd rather be at work but I think what I was really telling myself is that I wish I was well enough to theoretically be ABLE to go to work, because now that I know I'm returning to work tomorrow, I'm not so happy about it and I really would rather just keep organizing my music on my computer (25,553 songs as of right now - I had to delete a lot), watch stupid shows on TLC and randomly lay down. That was some run on sentence, eh?
I wish I could be something great.
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